Letters #010: My Good God and Good Body

This picture of me gives me mixed emotions because of the scars. It’s a mix of silly and grateful actually.

You may or may not already know but I had an accident in October last year and ended up with bruises on my right arm and a swollen knee and foot.

I think the gravity of the accident didn’t dawn on me until I saw how others reacted to the bruises and when I had to sleep in a particular way, propping my arm on a pillow for over a month.

It’s been months now and it’s just scars that are left. I’ve been pushing talking about this because I wanted to do so when the scars are no longer as visible or when it’s been over a year, but you know what; I’m grateful now, tomorrow, next and 1 year from now. Every day is a day of thanksgiving and I guess I can talk about this whenever and forever.

I’m grateful because I realise that I survived and it wasn’t a small feat. I fell beside the tires of a trailer in a relatively small corner, that day could have gone a million ways worse than it did but it didn’t.

I tried not to treat the whole accident as something severe as I didn’t want others, my mum in particular to worry about me but it was and I survived it. So I’m grateful to God and grateful for my body. It has gone through a lot and it is still intact.

The silly bit is I want my scarless arm back 😭. Seeing it in the picture makes it so vivid. Like my beauty is “tainted” 🙈. I know scar or not, I’m a spec but that’s how the scar makes me feel sometimes.

And then there are days when the scar looks like a tattoo to me and I’m like “yo, I’m so fly”, I finally got a tattoo. I’m so going to rock these scars.

Anyway, mostly I’m grateful that I survived and in spite of it all, I’m still here!

On my end, this psalm captures the depth of the gratitude in my heart and I’ll like to share it with you:

What if God had not been on our side? Let all Israel admit this! What if God had not been there for us?

Our enemies, in their violent anger, would have swallowed us up alive!
The nations, with their flood of rage, would have swept us away, and we would have drowned and perished beneath their torrent of terror!

We can praise God over and over that he never left us! God wouldn’t allow the terror of our enemies to defeat us. We are free from the hunter’s trap; their snare is broken and we have escaped!

For the same God who made everything, our Creator and our mighty maker, he himself is our helper and defender!

Psalm 124:1-8 (TPT)

What are you grateful for? How can you celebrate your scars, the Lord and the good body the Lord gave you?

I should say, it’s fine if you’re not at the gratitude stage over your scars yet, whatever it is, I’m sending you love and loads of hugs.

Ciao,
Yami ❤️